Its Okay To Express it

Philippians 4:6

New Living Translation

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

Life can be so scary, overwhelming and unfair, and when this happens whom do we go to ,to vent?

Some will pay a therapist, others either cannot afford it or simply don't believe in it, but at times even venting in our inner circle can become a dangerous slippery slope which plays against us in the future.

 I believe that staying positive is very important, but its not necessarily easy at all time, when we are working hard for a long period of time, have been patient longer than we want to admit we can face a dead end and have no more motivation, hope, courage and patience and become on edge, everything makes us snap, everyone annoys us and we cannot find any sort of consolation.

That is why the above verse is mind-blowing

 Philippians 4:6

New Living Translation

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

You can tell God anything, he will never feel annoyed, nor will he gossip or make you feel bad simply he will support you and guide you on your personalized path to whatever you need.

As I am writing this blog I have myself spent nearly 6 months waiting on something and yes everyday I see progress but , I see more augmenting pressure, responsibilities and mental load.

The funny thing or sad thing is that I did everything right but unfair discrimination, mean evil people on power trip and endless injustice has led to a very long long long long wait.

Yes I found my exit in the maze but ,not without a very high cost, it literally left me like a zombie on the verge of breaking, hanging on by a thread, while trying to balance my career and my personal life, I have found myself to like I am the ghost of my own life. I feel like I am living the life of someone else, I feel like at time its a nightmare, others its a challenge so unfair I just want to give up, and I did and am doing what I am asking you to do, talk to God you can talk in your mind without speaking out loud, you can talk out loud, you can sing, write, cry or even just Say God I can't go on, I don't even know what to say, even if you have no words , God will hear and understand you, sustain you and slowly, answers and solutions will come to life.

My life has always been so complicated, because of my vocation and chosen mission and career path, 

I am  far away from all my friends.

 I have demanding family members , very selfish whom only care about what they can get and never worry about if I myself am over my head so I stopped relying on them more than a decade ago, all my close friends are far away ,nearly an ocean away from me, hence, I don't feel comfortable bothering them with my concerns, and my coworkers like me, fight their own battles, I end up having no one that can really hear me, understand me, and although I have a wonderful soulmate, since men and women do not always speak the same language he also at times totally cannot relate to my woman concerns, and in time of great despair, all I have in a world with billions of people, is God.

Social medias, phone conversations and e-mails cannot do the trick.

Have A Blessed Sunday and download the Bible Application Youversion to find your own words of encouragement, its never too late to realize that you are not alone.

Best.

Pastor D